A good weekend...
After all this and going back to my hectic study weeks..
May God strengthen my road ahead and a determination heart..
A totally out of my expectation uni..
Different lifestyle,different kind of people and so many..
Yet,there's a long learning journey for me.
Timetable is pack,morning class to aft..
Wow~ should be a tired weeks..
May all these be done in Your name..

3 days in Mahsa

Already 3 days passes,
hopefully it will turn into 3 years after I open my eyes again..
It's counted orientation week,but to me is definitely NOT..
Day 1 to 3 be in lesson together with 2 UK co-ordinator..
Awesome English,awesome guidance..
Efficiency,Awesome..
They seriously take us as a University student rather than asking us to do the stupidness thing..
Good to hang around with coursemate(minority la)…
Basket of story want to share
Anyway,so far so good here...

Short back-bag trip

3days2night trip to Kl
Alone yet a learning process to me..
Main purpose is to visit my campus..
before that passing by the IMU..
Amazed me and passed by the UM afterward..
NIce compound and then Mahsa..
Main entrance was so nice and clean..
A nice physio centre provided where I mistook as gymnasium..
What I dissatisfy was the hostel.
Small and dirty.
And I believe God is making a big joke to me..
He hit on my weaknesses so accurately..
Ohhhh…..haiz yet I'm still need to overcome all these..
Making lot fun and create joke to the taxi-driver too..
From a kampung girl where I need to turn into a city girl is not easy..
and everything as a new thing to me..
Long journey to learn..
Yet,i'm still thanks God for His abundances..
This short back-pack trip make m eyes open.

I'm ready

Went out for I love Kluang Project this afternoon
felt so much relax and easy this time after 2months i missed out..
Much satisfied compared to the previous distribution which I will involved every month.
Less people compared to each time..
3 of us in a big car but more joyful and more attention we paid to the families.
Maybe this time we learnt how to give more rather than every month just in sake of doing.
Stepped into a new family.
A husband with 3 wives and 16 kids aged fr2-20yrs old
Can you imagined the situation,it's shocking me..
First wive had already divorce and 2nd wife and her oldest daughter were worked who took up the responsibility to feed the family.
Unfortunately,the oldest daughter met an accident and yet didn't get any compensation and still undergoing treatment..
Income been cut off at this moments.
One blows come after another.
Suddenly I stood out and asked jit can I give her some physiotherapy(although I'm knew I'm not fit yet and of course they took me as kidding)
But,I had a strong feel at that time(I wanted help her)
How i wish I had the skill to do this and feel like wanted doing something(nothing in the end also)
Maybe just need be patient and wait now
Feel glad and rejoice,
I seek back the thing I wanted most..
I'm enjoying To Serve..
Always remind myself to stay focus..
Making money is everybody's wishes,always cannot compared the big satisfaction after we give..
Yes,learnt to give;my forever lesson..
As I know Lord is our provider :D
Yeep!!!so looking forward my study after struggling all this while..
Physiotherapy-I'm ready..

Less than 10days
As the day getting nearer,my heart getting more and more uneasiness
Don't know why,
home-sick,whatever, maybe a responsible again..
Another 4 years,a long journey..
Worries more than expectation..
Maybe this time I have really learnt to independent..
More independent..

709 end,prayer endless

709 is a day should wrote in our history book??
How I wish when my generation can see the scene by duno how many years after..
Is that possible??Yes,but definitely not in our Sejarah Malaysia..
I'm thanks God because I'm safe now,but when I thought of my safety came from those who are scarified their own safety to protect our land..
A bit shameful and useless while I can't do more..
Advised from my friends,they asked me don't do silly thing again ah as I'm still under government ah..
Frankly speaking,I'm hesitate and fear(what will happen when I been caught and so on)
What should I fear in our homeland??
It's too late to say much here..
How I wish when I opened my eyes this morning,
there'll be a New Malaysia..
Anyway,since 709 is come to an end.
But it doesn't mean my prayer for a change in Malaysia will stop
and hope it same to everyone,
709 end,prayer endless..

Satisfied and impressed when you see people around who willing to stand up for a Change in their world/land..
Really,I'm salute you regardless who you are,where you are standing right now..
Seriously,I'm wish I can do more,not because i want to win but fight for our right-our justice..
What's wrong if we wanted a fair and clean election and of course harmony country..
There're just lot people take all this for granted..Including myself..
Sad..
Thank you for the people who willing to step out,
thank you for bringing peace and harmony to us.

Hmm..
Should I go for a back-pack before Uni start?
I wish to..
A time for me to plan all the journey
because I'm the only traveller..
Short-distance,all the way to KL..
Hot sun,the only thing in my consideration..

Mindset set.
Decision made.
Feel of releasing.
Next,act on it.
The hardest part,
More strength to draw.
Everything going to end soon..

back to normal

Hope it all goes well..
Take it in control,Lord.
What's my purpose,focus on it..
Keep your command..
And this may be my last time be to telling myself.
Stop what it doesn't belong to me.
Thank you for the happiness and joyful moment which you have lent me..
It's time I returned all this..
And back to normal..
And back to the first time we met,which maintain as a stranger.
Forgive my cruelly-ness and stubborn-ness..
Because there won't be happy ending..
Pray for you silently in my heart and blessing to you..

In-between

In-between??
Black vs white=grey
Have you ever in a position called in-between?
How does it feel?
Same as the feeling I had right now??
Hmm…
To me,
I always disagreed in-between
Is either black or white
Is either you want or don't want
Is either you can or cannot
Is either Yes or No..
I wrote this actually is a reminder to me..
Since I can't accept In-between
And yet I need to act it first..
Is a mindset,is a decision,most important is a Pride to me..

1+1=2

Shouldn't start all these from beginning..
Never thought of the seriousness of the matter..
It's like no sense while all this happened and only speak a lot here
Yet,I cant't even seen any changed..Seriously..None..
Time will be the best medicine for the hurt??
I'm don't know,but if in my view..
I think is WON'T..
Repent??Sincere??
Thinking now..
I thanks God for your present
yet I wish I won't meet you from beginning..
There's purpose behind all this..
Just like if I never met a group of awesome friends
and I won't end up to meet you,Lord..
1+1=2
Nothing can change the fact.
No matter how one's trying very hard to change all these.
Yet,it always and still be there..
Sometimes,I'm hated myself too..
for finding excuses rather than changing myself.
Is easier to think,how about to act?
At this moment,I can't find even 1 reason to support my stand..
I know what is wrong and yet I have no courage to stop it..

1st July 2011

tik tok tik tok!!!
waaa,1st of July..
22days to go..
Ready to go,physically more than mentally ba..
but,i believe I can overcome all this.
Because,
He goes before me.
What should I afraid??