20th of June

20.06.10
'It' comes across my mind again.
Cover it well,
because I do not want to CRY.
It's no use crying over a split milk.
Making myself busy and tired,
so that I do not have the extra time even a second to think about it.
Do not know why,
the most you want to hide it,
the most it explore.
Strengthen me to pass this day.
Read a book,
it was interesting.
Talked about our life like a TEST.
God may test us different way.
Maybe,
HE wanted test me by LOST IT.
And there was a REGRET in my life.
Through this,
always telling myself do not let regret in my life.
Because it is definitely PAINFUL.
Like a wound which is bleeding..
''Father day''
sound like so unfamiliar and stranger to me.
Deeper my wound AGAIN.
Questioning God,
why you so cruel.
But,
my sis told me,
maybe it was RELEASE.
to you or our
maybe...
because I'm only can ACCEPT
under such condition without choices for me..
Learn not to be so emo+ing.
Do not want anybody sympathy.
I think I can overcome it...
Learning,
Be strong+ing..