Friday, March 26, 2010
Good thing are yet to come.
Just a sentence''lot thing is beyond our control'' & ''it's all out of our hand''.Was thought about these when people told me.Is it really lot thing are out of our control.Means that we need to GIVE IN or please others?In the end,it seen like we had lost ourselves.The situation make us could not pull ourselve out of the suffering and struggle.Lot thing we need to consider and worry about just because we are no longer live by ourselves.What we had done,it brought consequenses not only to you but the people around you especially our family.Likewise,we need to follow and obey what your boss asked you to do,even how unwilling you are.We could not stand firm with our principle anymore.The situation had forced us to put all your principle and dissatisfaction down.It's all become so small,so non-value when compare to the basic income-salary.There was always a thing that hold us back,it might be money,relationship.....One thing we should know is that:do not follow evil to do bad.Stand firm with the right thing.Good thing are yet to come.By Faith,we can do Great things.
I'm still ALIVE
Well, exam week had passed.It could be said that drove me to crazy.I was know that what I had read was not enough..Totally no..Telling myself that this was the turning point for me.Really.Must buck up.Actually did not expect much from this time exam because I knew that I did not pay my full effort.All I had done was just last minutes work.Even I get 5,6 marks in my exam,then so what.I could not blame anybody because how much effort I paid,there was how much I gained back.This only showed that I pay out 7% out of 100% effort..I DESERVE it.
Instead,how tired I was now,mentally or physically.There was a day let me came to rest.Still will like to Give thanks that Lord had given me strength to walk through the exam period.yes.good thing are yet to come.Will continue to walk till the final destination with your strength.
Instead,how tired I was now,mentally or physically.There was a day let me came to rest.Still will like to Give thanks that Lord had given me strength to walk through the exam period.yes.good thing are yet to come.Will continue to walk till the final destination with your strength.
Monday, March 15, 2010
An hour before birthday
There is about an hour more which I should say goodbye to 18 but enter 19 years old le..Flashed back,was asking myself,what have I done during this 18years ..Cannot think about any GREAT thing I had done.Anyway,Im here to give thanks that let me had my 18years although it contained lot sadness,it could not deny that I have lot wonderful thing.Be 19 years old le,means im grow up.Must be muture a bit more to do and think thing.
Eleen came to my house this evening.Too sad,I was not around at the moments.Besides giving the homework to me but she passed the present to me too.Am so touching when seeing the present.It was not as simple but full of meaning behind the present.Tears are warming up my cheeks when she send me a message.:
It's my pleasure.. Can get to know you is also a blessing in my life..even thought we are not so close as before already,but in my memory we will always be.Thanks so much for everything.I gave you watch not only because yours watch old already..but i hope that time everytime you see it,will think of each every second we spent together.Whether good or bad moments,hope you will remember every step and every moment we together these day.May our friendship last forever..Eleen said.
What Im trying to say here is:lot thing may seen differently now and maybe we are not so close as before le..anyway Im still cherish you as my bestest friend.and it does not mean that we wont be so close as before a..Trying me best now...jiayou together a..Thanks 4 everything..
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Word like a sword..
My mom's word bring thorn that hurt me again and again.Yes.I know..be a child we must honour our parents.Im already tried very hard to fulfill your wishes but why you always want judge a book by a cover..I feel heartbroken this time.I cried out when my jiejie called me from Singapore.Chat a lot.but why in your eyes,whatever I do seen like a wrong..Im know what I am doing..I can differentiate whether is right or wrong.I can think before action..Just a little understanding that is so hard from you to me..?
jiejie say maybe Im too stuborn and we are lack of communication and Im do not like to speak out my opinion to my mom. In the end,an misunderstood happened.But all this are not I want a.What I say is worth or not.Be obedient.Im doing so.What you can see is just the surface.Did you really see it by your heart.You do not know.How much you want expect from me..Did not talk back when you are pointing your finger to me.Everyone has stress there is not only you.Does it mean that you can do anything.Yes.People only noticed the black dot out of a big picture.The moment Im doing good you cannot see whereas the moment Im doing wrong once that you will notice..Is it reasonable.??
Im trying hard do not let my emotion and anger to judge and control my mind.Im know that you have your reason what you doing so.But just want you to know that.Everyone can make mistake.Maybe you will think that what you think is right and for my sake.It was wrong.Do not make your thinking be my thinking.There is not necassary what you say is right to me..
Wake up,mom.Be reasonable.Make you point that can convince me but not with your status.
jiejie say maybe Im too stuborn and we are lack of communication and Im do not like to speak out my opinion to my mom. In the end,an misunderstood happened.But all this are not I want a.What I say is worth or not.Be obedient.Im doing so.What you can see is just the surface.Did you really see it by your heart.You do not know.How much you want expect from me..Did not talk back when you are pointing your finger to me.Everyone has stress there is not only you.Does it mean that you can do anything.Yes.People only noticed the black dot out of a big picture.The moment Im doing good you cannot see whereas the moment Im doing wrong once that you will notice..Is it reasonable.??
Im trying hard do not let my emotion and anger to judge and control my mind.Im know that you have your reason what you doing so.But just want you to know that.Everyone can make mistake.Maybe you will think that what you think is right and for my sake.It was wrong.Do not make your thinking be my thinking.There is not necassary what you say is right to me..
Wake up,mom.Be reasonable.Make you point that can convince me but not with your status.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
{感受}
[遗憾]
有伤有痛；又苦又泪，
却是成长过程必经的路，
寻寻觅觅，
只为找寻那[放下]一切的出口。
放下，就代表一切都过去了吗？
[悔恨]
带来的就只有泪水与伤害。
时间的流逝，
冲淡不了过去，
只加深了伤口上的痛。
努力的坚强，
只为了掩盖好[心]的脆弱。
[相信]
试着用[心]去适应，
却始总说服不了[心]
越过不了自己的[障碍]
眼前的一步，
似易似难; 似远似近,
依然选择停留原地,
不前进,注定是失败.
[希望]
总出现在[绝望]?
雨后都会有[彩虹]?
[坚持]就会有[胜利]?
跌倒了真的能站起来?
[放下]了也就是''重新人生''
有伤有痛；又苦又泪，
却是成长过程必经的路，
寻寻觅觅，
只为找寻那[放下]一切的出口。
放下，就代表一切都过去了吗？
[悔恨]
带来的就只有泪水与伤害。
时间的流逝，
冲淡不了过去，
只加深了伤口上的痛。
努力的坚强，
只为了掩盖好[心]的脆弱。
[相信]
试着用[心]去适应，
却始总说服不了[心]
越过不了自己的[障碍]
眼前的一步，
似易似难; 似远似近,
依然选择停留原地,
不前进,注定是失败.
[希望]
总出现在[绝望]?
雨后都会有[彩虹]?
[坚持]就会有[胜利]?
跌倒了真的能站起来?
[放下]了也就是''重新人生''
whole day down
Today.. quite bad mood...Early in the morning been nagging by my mom..It's make me and my bro had a bad and down mood all the day.Speechless the whole day..It make me think about that..This is my life.What we must live under people control..Going to please others.This was totally make me lost and be crazy.It is because as long as I'm under my mom's child that I need be a obedient girl..Do all the thing that she order me to do..Am I really need a change because the circumstance,people,parent and fulfill everyone will..
Me need a change because.....
Sunday, February 28, 2010
The strongest the surface,the weakest the inner.
Suppose to write blog on last night(27.2.10)but it was dead beat to me but full of meaning thing.It was Awesome..Went out early in the morning with kor jit pang to Malacca.Maybe it was unbelievable..this was my first time went to Malacca and could be said lot first time in my life ba..Had some quality time with jit on the way to Mlk..
Was surprise when he asked me about my family background.First time we talked about this topic.Could be say I was never mention these thing to everyone ba..It was NOT I felt any ashamed or embarrassing..It was because I did not wish to explore the wound again..Yes..It was painful and deepest HURT.BUT,how much I hide it,it explore much more that in my expectation.It was not seen like any HEAL as time was passing by.Yes..it took time to heal.Hope in shortest time.Along the journey,we chatted a lot.He could be the first one that I expressed everything to him ba.I cried in front of him.I knew that he was not purposely making me cry.The much he said,I seen like defeated bit by bit.You should know this was the topic that I MOST did not want to talk about.On the moments,I could not control myself.I did not know where I gained this bravery to talk to you.Wondering jit was strong or I was weak.
Frankly speaking,we shared lot secrets not only me but you too.I felt like more understand to you too.Yes.the secret was kept in the car le.Will fulfill the promise.One thing that I remembered till now was you told me"nothing can disappointed you unless I GIVE UP"Actually I thought about Give Up but on the car I did not dare to tell you..Because I did not wish to hurt the people anymore le.Thing turn even worse that I think about go HOME.(so far no such feeling now)But this is the thing I could not control.What I scared was this feeling attack me again and again.
Lot thing you told me about you was so surprise me.Yes.You have done lot thing to youths like us but how many of us could really understand you(if you never mention,I think i never know it)You have done the GREATEST job and finally I knew how much you have loved us.Before that,you told me "I love U"such words.To me so normal.Every pastor will told to their youth like this de ba.But this time was DIFFERENT.You are really care of us.Heard what you have done,the moment i feel very touching but I tried very hard did not cry in front of you again.Thanks.Really appreciate to know you.kor jit pang.
You asked me to trust you(you know Im not easy to trust people)But I promise you.I will tried my best,no guarantee a.You asked me be frank to you,just wanted tell you if I was not enough frank to you then I won tell you my struggle le. Sometimes feel bad,everytime gt problems will come to you.Feel like gave you much trouble.Sorry about that.Maybe I should learn not so rely on people.
Night on 28.2.10.It was last day on February as last day for me to full play.Agreement will start after more 2hours.Stop being playful.
Was surprise when he asked me about my family background.First time we talked about this topic.Could be say I was never mention these thing to everyone ba..It was NOT I felt any ashamed or embarrassing..It was because I did not wish to explore the wound again..Yes..It was painful and deepest HURT.BUT,how much I hide it,it explore much more that in my expectation.It was not seen like any HEAL as time was passing by.Yes..it took time to heal.Hope in shortest time.Along the journey,we chatted a lot.He could be the first one that I expressed everything to him ba.I cried in front of him.I knew that he was not purposely making me cry.The much he said,I seen like defeated bit by bit.You should know this was the topic that I MOST did not want to talk about.On the moments,I could not control myself.I did not know where I gained this bravery to talk to you.Wondering jit was strong or I was weak.
Frankly speaking,we shared lot secrets not only me but you too.I felt like more understand to you too.Yes.the secret was kept in the car le.Will fulfill the promise.One thing that I remembered till now was you told me"nothing can disappointed you unless I GIVE UP"Actually I thought about Give Up but on the car I did not dare to tell you..Because I did not wish to hurt the people anymore le.Thing turn even worse that I think about go HOME.(so far no such feeling now)But this is the thing I could not control.What I scared was this feeling attack me again and again.
Lot thing you told me about you was so surprise me.Yes.You have done lot thing to youths like us but how many of us could really understand you(if you never mention,I think i never know it)You have done the GREATEST job and finally I knew how much you have loved us.Before that,you told me "I love U"such words.To me so normal.Every pastor will told to their youth like this de ba.But this time was DIFFERENT.You are really care of us.Heard what you have done,the moment i feel very touching but I tried very hard did not cry in front of you again.Thanks.Really appreciate to know you.kor jit pang.
You asked me to trust you(you know Im not easy to trust people)But I promise you.I will tried my best,no guarantee a.You asked me be frank to you,just wanted tell you if I was not enough frank to you then I won tell you my struggle le. Sometimes feel bad,everytime gt problems will come to you.Feel like gave you much trouble.Sorry about that.Maybe I should learn not so rely on people.
Night on 28.2.10.It was last day on February as last day for me to full play.Agreement will start after more 2hours.Stop being playful.
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