sudden thought

Realisation
sometimes,think about a word ''WORTH"...after we doing certain thing o making a choice...a question come out from my brain..does everything that I did was worth...I do not understand..how can it be classified as worth it or not....Does it mean you use rm100+but a real Converse mean it is worth or vise vesa..after all, i found out..to me..worth..can be say a satisfactory ba...I think it is worth when I was doing thing without any regret..
Second realisation,there is no second chance when you recoming back...Wanted buying a shoes jz now..it attrach me when i saw it last night...but going bek to the shop..there is no more size le..sigh..it make sense too..
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CHANGED

Every night came to these moment,It could be said it was my most peaceful and enjoying time..Wrote down no matter good and bad things in my little mind....
It was new year eve but to me...there was nothing special...My house was packed crowd of relatives...But they seen like quite stranger to me...A new year eve dinner...I was sure that quite lot people were hang around with their family and enjoy the moment...but to me...It was just a meal nothing special as usual...The topic nothing relationship to me...take my dinner and ate in the living room while others were sit together and enjoy the meal in the dining room..A meal which was meaningless at my new year eve time...sigh==''
Early in the morning,having a railway project and I was attend it..It was quite less members who was attend it which compared to usual....Maybe today was a new year eve....haha..the project today was quite special..We gone to the owner of kluang mall and majupadu's house....Waa..it was give me a shock when we went to miss tey's house...It was like a palace...Shocking me somemore when the big dog running out...Seeing Mis tey quite often when I was hang around in kluang mall before..but today she give me a different opinion to her which I felt quite totally different ba....She was so humble....even she was came from a rich family and could be described as a princess ba...BUt she was totally did not have any action attitude...She was followed us until finishing today project...all the way she was so friendly...and all the stuff today was sponsor by her...waa...proud...
Lastly, it was some of my feeling which I wanted to wrote it down days ago....Stuck at these moment....suddenly all my expression was gone...but one thing Im knew was Im got lot thing want to tell her...

Was feeling disappointed about the injuctice....Just because want reduce the trouble..i need to let go my principle....N just follow what my relatives said...It make me like a stupid....damn shit...yes...everyone like to defend for himself including turning the facts...they can speak lies just as a normal thing...Suddenly heard my neighbour said,let settle it by the easy way...each part settle own problem including paying the fees...It make me think that where all the justice have gone...What is left is unfair and let go....sign about these thing and I finally believe
Human nature is evil...

Difference experience.....

Cross-country today...Although lot people will say that what the big deal..yes..but it's gave me different testimony...Did not feel sad above din get any prize but enjoy all the way...These time cross-country did not join my usual Stabk group...but I'm alone..Yes..
There was a 4km journey but I'm do not think that it was a long journey...Along the way,asthma attack and feel like going to faint(maybe din not take ant breakfast) but I was bear till finish my journey...quite proud of it..haha...There is an obstacle if only you think it is a problem or obstacle..
Besides,along the way running..keep noticed there were lot people passing by my sides..There were different kind of people...It's let me think about my life..There were different people entered and left my life...Some of them just like a passenger-by..It's depends how longer he/she stay in our life...but there is a day he/she will leave us...God place different people in our life sure that is a purpose...Just have faith in Him and Give Thanks...maybe He send 'them' to give me a guide and test...be a guide line in my future day...
Lastly,when I almost reaching the end point..Saw one of they gang members was not feeling well and sit alone at the sides...Nothing cross my mind but I was walked towards her and gave her a help...I hold her hand and walked together...Wondering where i gain such encouragement and strength to do so...May He forgive our sin and those sin against us...Save us from the evil one..Those word cross my mind....

Maybe He name be glorify in the highest place....

Yes..Friendship is tested all the way...
Is either become closer or fade...
Is it depend on how much trust,faith,love has given??
Good friend best friend...
What are the definision???
It seen close but far..
It seen near but you cnt hold it..

Eyes -learn do not see anything...
Ears -learn do not hear anything...
Mouth-learn do not say anything...
Heart -learn do not feel anything...

Big difference between men and women.....

Feel that women is an emotional animal...They will like to solve thing by heart but not brain..Keep finding an excuss for themselve above dn not dare to accept the fact and hurt..Besides,they will like to find an excuss for the men...Cry find the men...How much tears have been dropped...but it seen like not a matter in men's eyes..Women think that they can make a change in men..but is does not..Men won change just because a woman...This is a fact...
Why women always is the part to get hurt in love matter..Where all the promises that men have gave...Why men won appreciate what on your hand...Such a disappointed...In the end, all come out is a bluff..Men enjoy the outcome but women enjoy every seconds,every minutes and every journey...Men won think that they have making a wrong or take it as a problem but they will magnify a small matter...Men always said that they do not understand what women actual thinking but the problem is are they really going to find out...haiz..
Men..can u wake up and do something....
Dn make men status=0 in women heart...